Nuria

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I made a pact with Nuria

I met her in a dream

October 31, 2020, Haloween

A fox

A bat

A woman of the dark arts

From México, she is. Turquoise is her stone.

And I will be her host, and any child I should have by blood. Her spirit will dwell with us, our family.

You see, Nuria is needed somewhere in the future. So she told me when we met.

She begged me to stay.

I fought and wrestled with her.

We are evenly matched.

I saw her heart, and it is good.

The first time I shared a bed with Dream...

I was walking home the following morning.

Over the river and through the woods,

as the sun rose yellow

I saw a red fox

Only a meter apart, us two

She stopped and stared a moment

And in that moment, I knew

That you, Dream

You are Nuria

Another form, just as the fox

I knew then that I would give you my heart

My life

My children

I knew then that you would cost me everything

Just as we had arranged

once upon a dreaming

I knew that you would be my wings and my heart and my favorite song

That I would fly and feel and burn so bright

And fade into the morning

I love you Dream, Nuria, Fox, Bat

Master of the darkest arts

You are my muse

And I will let your love consume me.

I remember when you revealed yourself to me

We were playing guitar

I was stoned and you were drunk

You took my hand

You looked me in the eye

I called you Aphrodite then

Because your love was such a fire

You had laughter in your eyes

As you said, "Pan. I am Athena"

I knelt and cried and kissed your feet

"Mother, thank you," I muttered.

"Thank you! Oh, I love you!"

There's a knot around your heart now

There's a fog about your face

You're taking shooters from your purse

I'm wide awake & half asleep at once

It's so absurd

I know you

I don't know you

I fear what I can't see

And everything inside me

Blindly pulling you towards me